There is a difference between performing and giving out of the gratitude that is in your heart. In our culture of self-sufficiency and rewards based on performance in school, in athletics, in the workplace, it can be easy to mistake more performing for true service and true fellowship. There is nothing wrong with hard work placed towards a noble goal. It is not the way of grace; grace is unearnable. This is a hard shift to make. I liked school, in preparing for taking a test I would set out to conquer. I wanted nothing less than 100% and I could usually get at least very near to this goal. I was rewarded with a big A. It makes sense, work hard for it and then receive it. Now, there is a place for hard work in our spiritual lives, for setting goals about how to live and how to love our neighbors. Our relationship with Christ is one of commitment (covenants even) and faithfulness to His voice. Yet when it comes to receiving and extending grace, this is a different part of the journey. Grace is the open door; grace is the reason for responding to the Father and Son whose love is so great; a great sacrifice was made. The rest of the journey is for acts of love with the help of the Holy Spirit and out of the heart of one who is debt free and full of gratitude.
This realization has helped me come to terms with the parable of the vineyard. The one where the employer basically pays the workers the same whether they arrived at 6 am or a half hour before quitting time. Yes, initially, something inside me screamed, “it’s not fair!” But as I am taking my small, sometimes unsteady, sometimes one step forward-three steps back on my journey towards my goal of coming nearer to the path Jesus would have me walk, I can see that the point is, He loves all of us and wants all of us. His grace allows us to come, and to come, as we are, when we are ready to come.
God of Grace and Love, I pray that I may remember the grace that pursued and wooed me. I pray that I may remember to extend this grace to those I bump into in your world today. Amen.